Feelings —

I wish I never truly had.
Wish I never met you, spoke to you or even saw you.
Feelings that I wish I never had feelings…
or fell for your eyes and spirit.
Wish I never had to go through your shit.
of too many years, of agony and pain. Of love and hatred.

Wish I never had to feel it. All of it. Feel it.
Now it hurts
Like thousands of knives are attacking my chest.
Wish I never had to scream. In pain. Calling out your name, with hatred and disgust.

Now you can fuck yourself. After you fucked up my life.
Fuck you. That I can say. That is all I have to say.

Get out, and get me out, of this hell you gave me.
Go away, fuck off and vanish. Or die.

Feelings. Of pain and agony.
Feelings, nothing more than just feelings.
Feelings of hurt and hate.

That love I had, years ago. Now gone. All vanished.
Replaced with hate and hurt.

Feelings that I should have never let you
in… in my life.
Feelings that I should have never gave you
more than a second chance… or a third.

Those feelings, should never come again.
Will never come again.

(words written above are merely inspired by the following song. A song that gives the shiver every time I listen to it, thinking, feeling…)


  1. Very profound thoughts…beautifully presented…


    1. Thanks. I’m glad you think this way.

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  2. Arwa – This is such powerful presentation sharing a painful feelings. This is deep and had the courage to speak up. Keep up and move on!

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    1. Thank you. I don’t know why I decided to write this. I mean, I just couldn’t help it, and this song just kept popping in my head every now and then. It’s so hard not to write things down, and even share them.

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      1. wow – I know exactly how you feel when you write – Your courage to speak and share gives you more confident! Bravo!

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